23 and confused.
You know when you’ve watched one of those feel good, goofy silly rom-coms that leave you smiling for no reason. And then you suddenly have a voiceover for your own life for the rest of the day?
Well, that’s how I’m feeling right now. The voiceover is even cheesily reading every word I type aloud with a silly cheesy grin to match.
It’s Sunday night. The rain is crashing against the bay window and for the first time in a while, the main road outside is silent. Oh! No, there goes a car. It’s 23:37. What am I doing with my life!? Life is weird.
This post has come around because I’m confused. I’m 23 and confused. About, well, everything. No that’s a lie. Just the voiceover being dramatic.
I guess I always thought that I’d understand life by now. Like somehow between school and finishing uni I’d “just get it”. By 23 I’d have a full-time job, stable relationship and a puppy. A Spaniel of some sort. And life would just be simple and easy. LOL.
Don't get me wrong. This is no Bridget Jones-esque post. No "I am determined to be a perfect independent woman doing a sensible job, not sticking out and sticking it to the man (in the gender sense) while at the same time goggling over Mr Darcy and his silly Christmas jumper". It’s the accepting that I am definitely not perfect, but with determination willing to make the most of it and what this madness called life has to offer in return.
This post has come around because I’m feeling in a massive limbo. And I want to document it. I’ve been told I’d make a good writer, because I’m honest. So here I go with a bit more motivation than I previously have had with this blog.
I’ve been taught that “life just is”. So why not write about what I make of it?! I could be anything I want to. So let’s make it happen. Let’s make it an experiment of sorts.
These are the facts:
My name is Hannah.
I am 23 in calendar years.
It’s the calendar year 2016.
What are my options?
They say that in order to figure out the present you should go back to the past, so maybe I will.
I want to make it my mission to stay true to myself. That means following through with my business idea, travelling where I want to, learning what I want to, having fun and of course writing about it.
I’m going to do some research and then I’ll get back to you.
Until then, sleep well my lovelies!